1614hrs

Screw everything! I'm taking the rest of the week off.

Happy weekend. Haha.

0005hrs

The tiny bright spark did appear in the end (well, almost the end), but not before a lot of sputtering and almost dying out a few times.

When it rains, it pours, doesn't it; in a cold place very far from where I am now, I sat shivering, staring blankly at a copy of The Guardian Weekend and just... stared.

The bright spark became a warm burning flame, the one that always lifts my spirits...

But then, in one fell swoop, it was all washed away by a torrent of raised voices and harsh words.

Tomorrow must be a better day...

1742hrs

Listening to: U2 - All I Want Is You

Today has got to be the worst day ever. I feel like crawling into bed and shutting out the world. (Right after I broadcast this fact to the world. Haha.)

Just hoping for a tiny bright spark that will make things seem all better again?

I live in hope.

So far away from me
So far I just can't see
So far away from me
You're so far away from me.

1232hrs

Yes, the finale of The Amazing Race 7 is on tonight! And I'm still rooting for them:



Hahaha. Sorry sis! :P

I can't stop thinking about a McD apple pie now. Hmmm.

[update #1: please do not click on comments if you don't wanna know who won. vk, you're so dead :@]

[update #2: I missed the show. Everyone please refrain from telling me who won until I get to catch it over the weekend. Thanks.]

2333hrs

Listening to:



Silje Negaard - Port Of Call (2000)


I fell asleep more than five times on the train back; its been a long, long day.

Was caught in the rain and stepped into puddles everywhere. Wet shoes and wet socks. Lunch was a small packet of onion rings and an ice lemon tea, alone at 4.30pm. Dinner was at 8.30pm. Travelled from Boon Lay to Holland Village, to Serangoon, to Tiong Bahru, to Chinatown, to Orchard Road, to Choa Chu Kang, and back to Boon Lay. My eyes are so tired, I can hardly see out of my left eye and everything is blurred.

Sounds like a really bad day, doesn't it?

Well it wasn't. :)

0725hrs

Listening to: Take That - Nobody Else


Today is supposed to be a good day.

It's my mum's birthday today. Happy birthday again mum!

It's also supposed to be a good day for other reasons... but somehow I don't feel all that great, even this early in the day. I woke up at 7am after a night of unfulfilling tossing and turning, and a lot of thinking.

Sometimes, I think it's too important to me that things are done the way I'd like them to be done. To the point that I'm imposing myself on others, not giving them their personal space, stifling them.

I sure as hell do not want to be a stifler.

Thinking it through, maybe it's unnecessary to keep seeking reassurances and bugging you about all things big and small.

So let today be the day all things change for the better. Yes, I am shaken by the things you said, 'cos I thought you fully understood why I do the things I do. But maybe that's just me imposing myself again.

Oh well. 明天会更好？就让今天也更好吧。